Anyone else besides me have problems keeping the Commandments of Jesus? In the Gospel today, Jesus says; “As the Father loves me, so I also love you. Remain in my love. If you keep my commandments, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commandments and remain in his love.” (John 15:9-10)
We might think of the Ten Commandments or the Beatitudes but I think Jesus gave us a very simple but not an easy way to keep God’s Commandments. One, love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, mind and strength and two, love your neighbor as yourself. Jesus also tells us to love one another as I have loved you.
So I share, probably too often when I write, that I am a horrible sinner. Without God’s grace, I am capable of anything. United with his grace, I know there is mercy when I do not cooperate with the gifts I am given and repent. I have found great peace sharing my love for others and seek being merciful as Jesus is merciful. It is really pretty awesome.
Here is my story today. A friend came to me and showed me a picture of her proposing to her female partner. She was so happy! She has been going through trials and to see her smile with tears in her eyes was a great blessing. I got up and hugged her and told her how happy I was for her and how great it was to see her so happy. Her partner also arrived and I did the same with her.
Now I know my faith pretty well and believe in all the teachings of the church. I have no doubt that this is not God’s will for marriage. I chose to love at that moment the way I think God would love me with great mercy. My friend knows my love for the Lord and if I had to guess might have even been apprehensive to share her great news with me.
Did I sin by my actions? Am I misunderstanding to “forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us?” I look back at my life and realize how wrong my perceptions were in my ignorance yet God has loved me and brought me to this point of my life where I do love him with all my heart, soul, mind and strength. I do not always love well as I am unfaithful in my sin but God is always faithful. For now, I think I did the right thing. Lord, let us all keep searching for truth with the help of your grace. Amen.