Yesterday, I shared a short snippet of self-pity in the sharing of struggle in my life. I said I wanted to run and hide. Today I made a better choice and went to the Lord for some Wisdom, Understanding, Knowledge, Courage, Counsel, Piety and Fear of the Lord. I started with morning prayer, a holy hour with the Blessed Sacrament in the Chapel, Confession, Mass and the Eucharist. What I learned was that I have a most merciful God who is very patient with me while asking me to trust him and to be patient with him, myself and others.
It was great advice as I reflect because most of my struggle is coming from my impatience of not knowing where my life is heading especially in a marriage that has been struggling for a seemingly long time. I have been feeling like I need to make something happen yet done nothing. Doing nothing at this point may be my answer to peace while I seek to be patient to see where the Lord leads us in his time.
Today’s second reading from Romans 5:1-5 speaks to me right where I am as St. Paul says… “and we boast in hope of the glory of God. Not only that, but we even boast of our afflictions, knowing that affliction produces endurance, and endurance, proven character, and proven character, hope, and hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit that has been given to us.”
Boasting in hope sounds great to me so until I lose my way and the Shepherd searches again for me, his lost sheep, I thank you for your love, prayers, comments and concern and know that I have not stopped praying for you. We are all in this together, brothers and sisters in Christ. Amen, Alleluia!